Do you know why I'm a tough girl?


Because I'm the closed one to home...I'm the one there..when anybody needs someone...
Am I too proud???
No...this is Care & Love...this is what I can do to repay every single LOVE from them...
I have read someone blog which contains words that will touch anybody heart if you read it. But the words special for her lovely sister...

Mum,
I'm not a good daughter at all
different mood when I want it
without care about your feeling
without knowing is it OK to do that
to a valuable person in my life

Mum,
from six of us, you speak to me more
even I'm the worse to object you
but what I write today's is how I feel about it

I'm very sorry if I'm too proud of it...
but this is me...I wonder how our home without me
and how about me without all of you...family...

Today,
I cant do my report
I cant ever do my preparation for my favorite subject presentation
I take this chance..to reveal...
to make me calm
by remembering my lovely home...
so that I can be strong enough...

Dear me,

Who was and always beside Mum's at all.

Was there through Mum's happiness and cry

Through rainbow and thunder.

you are the third daughter, not the eldest

but you have been Mum's best friend 

where Mum would spill her worries to

would share her happiness to

would ask for help from.

The one, who takes care of her younger siblings

The one who manage the house

the one who doing cooking

and the one who take care every person

in the house

hospital

and 

always worried about others than yourself

but you also being selfish sometime

when you think that people can do

as long as they have effort 

to do what they want

Dear me,

you speak loud, nor care about others feeling

when its come to the fact

that you cant accept

However

I have my own reason

even its terrible

I want to be strong

I want to catch my dream

I want to avoid those feeling

I want to fulfill

their hopes

but now I'm down

I'm feeling suck

terrible and bad

because I have lost

from the path

the road should be taken

the way should be decide

I want to be me

I want to make them happy

I can do it!!!

I can do it!!!

Insya'Allah

Ya Allah...Aku mohon kekuatan...